My life as a "normie" this far
Thursday, July 17, 2014
It's been 1 1/2 years....
I have always said that I use my surgery as a tool. As of lately though I have felt I need to put forth even more effort. I feel that my stomach is stretching a little and that I'm eating more. I'll be honest. I don't like it. I want to still be eating only half a burrito. Or half a salad. That's not the case. I feel myself eating more of the salad, more of the chicken. That's where I have made the cautious effort to watch my portions. Let me just say this, I don't clean my plate or come close to it. I just feel myself eating more than I did. It's not by any means pigging out or anything of the such. The way I used my surgery as a tool prior to this is I would eat healthier things but the surgery helped me control my portions. Now that my stomach has relaxed though, it's where I have to watch what I eat and how much I eat. It's still good and not out of control. It just starts to make me nervous that I have to really pay attention now. I know I will never allow myself to be where I was, but in the back of my mind there is "what if...". I can totally see how people who have had this surgery start having eating issues (i.e. becoming anorexic, etc.). Because I am aware of this I feel that I won't fall into that category.
Just got to take it day by day.....
I keep forgetting also that I can shop in "normal" stores. That part makes me laugh. I forget that I can purchase clothes at Dillards, JC Penney, Old Navy, etc. The Old Navy freaked me out. Only because you have to purchase the women's plus online only. So when I went in one day and was looking at dresses and I thought "I think I can wear this...". I make my way to the dressing room and try it on....it fits! It was so exciting!! Don't get me wrong, I'm kinda still in the "plus" side of things but definitely on the lower end :)
I have always said that I use my surgery as a tool. As of lately though I have felt I need to put forth even more effort. I feel that my stomach is stretching a little and that I'm eating more. I'll be honest. I don't like it. I want to still be eating only half a burrito. Or half a salad. That's not the case. I feel myself eating more of the salad, more of the chicken. That's where I have made the cautious effort to watch my portions. Let me just say this, I don't clean my plate or come close to it. I just feel myself eating more than I did. It's not by any means pigging out or anything of the such. The way I used my surgery as a tool prior to this is I would eat healthier things but the surgery helped me control my portions. Now that my stomach has relaxed though, it's where I have to watch what I eat and how much I eat. It's still good and not out of control. It just starts to make me nervous that I have to really pay attention now. I know I will never allow myself to be where I was, but in the back of my mind there is "what if...". I can totally see how people who have had this surgery start having eating issues (i.e. becoming anorexic, etc.). Because I am aware of this I feel that I won't fall into that category.
Just got to take it day by day.....
I keep forgetting also that I can shop in "normal" stores. That part makes me laugh. I forget that I can purchase clothes at Dillards, JC Penney, Old Navy, etc. The Old Navy freaked me out. Only because you have to purchase the women's plus online only. So when I went in one day and was looking at dresses and I thought "I think I can wear this...". I make my way to the dressing room and try it on....it fits! It was so exciting!! Don't get me wrong, I'm kinda still in the "plus" side of things but definitely on the lower end :)
I don't like this....
Saturday, July 12, 2014
I don't like that I have taken such a long break from blogging....
I seriously {LOVE} blogging. I didn't mean to take such a long, crazy break from it. I miss the friends that I made from it and sharing all the fun and amazing things going on in my life with everyone.
What's been going on in my life? Well let me tell you....
I'll start with my weight loss update first. I'm still at 180 lbs down. I've stayed the same, which in a way is a great thing. But the one bad thing is I'm content. I {WANT} to go down more but the break has been nice. After the 4th I am starting a {get my butt back in gear} plan. I ended my gym membership in the fall, but I plan on joining the YMCA in Odessa. They have a really great facility and I like that people can get day passes so if anyone wants to go one day or go to a class with me they can. I want to get on a schedule. I have missed a schedule. Don't get me wrong. I have LOVED my time with Travis but we both need to get back on schedule with our work out routine. I.can't.wait.
In February my family and I (mom, Craig, Cymbre, Mike, Ranston, and Kenner) went to Disneyland!! I absolutely {LOVE} Disney. It is one of the most magical places. You can not walk in there and not just be happy. We went for Ranston's 4th birthday. I would say that is a pretty awesome place to spend it. I also crossed something off my weight loss bucket list! I rode my first ride in 20 years! Probably a little longer than that lol. My first ride was the Peter Pan ride. It was awesome! We rode so much but didn't get to ride some of the ones I wanted to. We will definitely have to when we go back for Kenner's 4th birthday. She is so cute when you ask her where she gets to go for her birthday. She smiles real big and yells "DISNEYLAND!". And conveniently her birthday is 8 days before mine. So guess where I get to spend my 35th birthday??!! "DISNEYLAND!"
I am still in {love} :) Every day it gets better and better. I'm still so excited to see where it goes....
My Origami Owl business is still booming and I pray every day that it continues. I am seriously so appreciative of all my customers. The company is amazing and still such a positive influence for my myself and my amazing friends that I've made. The 23rd I leave for our 2nd annual national convention! I can't wait! I need a get a way :)
So that's a little bit of what's going on in my life :) I am going to try and blog 3 times a week so we shall see how well that works out lol.
I seriously {LOVE} blogging. I didn't mean to take such a long, crazy break from it. I miss the friends that I made from it and sharing all the fun and amazing things going on in my life with everyone.
What's been going on in my life? Well let me tell you....
I'll start with my weight loss update first. I'm still at 180 lbs down. I've stayed the same, which in a way is a great thing. But the one bad thing is I'm content. I {WANT} to go down more but the break has been nice. After the 4th I am starting a {get my butt back in gear} plan. I ended my gym membership in the fall, but I plan on joining the YMCA in Odessa. They have a really great facility and I like that people can get day passes so if anyone wants to go one day or go to a class with me they can. I want to get on a schedule. I have missed a schedule. Don't get me wrong. I have LOVED my time with Travis but we both need to get back on schedule with our work out routine. I.can't.wait.
In February my family and I (mom, Craig, Cymbre, Mike, Ranston, and Kenner) went to Disneyland!! I absolutely {LOVE} Disney. It is one of the most magical places. You can not walk in there and not just be happy. We went for Ranston's 4th birthday. I would say that is a pretty awesome place to spend it. I also crossed something off my weight loss bucket list! I rode my first ride in 20 years! Probably a little longer than that lol. My first ride was the Peter Pan ride. It was awesome! We rode so much but didn't get to ride some of the ones I wanted to. We will definitely have to when we go back for Kenner's 4th birthday. She is so cute when you ask her where she gets to go for her birthday. She smiles real big and yells "DISNEYLAND!". And conveniently her birthday is 8 days before mine. So guess where I get to spend my 35th birthday??!! "DISNEYLAND!"
I am still in {love} :) Every day it gets better and better. I'm still so excited to see where it goes....
My Origami Owl business is still booming and I pray every day that it continues. I am seriously so appreciative of all my customers. The company is amazing and still such a positive influence for my myself and my amazing friends that I've made. The 23rd I leave for our 2nd annual national convention! I can't wait! I need a get a way :)
So that's a little bit of what's going on in my life :) I am going to try and blog 3 times a week so we shall see how well that works out lol.
